( he actually flinches, just a little. a barely perceptible thing. )
I know. I'm sorry.
( he looks down at his left arm tucked into the sling, wrapped up in bandages. bolin doesn't know what happened, so... different timeline, he guesses. he's from earlier. mako's talked to enough people that he knows it's possible now. but he's dressed in the uniform from kuvira's army, so they can't be that far apart, just. far enough. still, as much as he's trying to be open and honest, he can't bring himself to say, i almost died.
and he's realizing that if he had... if bolin hadn't dragged him out of the mech before it exploded, that bolin would be all alone in the world. and he wouldn't have anyone left who could tell him these things. mako's had plenty of near-death experiences, so much so it's normalized. but this is the first time he's taken serious injury that can't just be healed away. he's probably going to have to wake up every morning for the rest of his life in pain. that brings it home in a way he's never had to worry about before. makes it real.
bolin could have been left alone.
and he'd. be all right. of course he would. not like if mako lost him, he'd absolutely lose it and never recover, but. bo's hardier than he is in that way, he'd survive. but the little things that mako could have told him and never did, those would be gone forever. )
I guess it just... it's still hard to talk about them sometimes. But you still deserve to know.
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I know. I'm sorry.
( he looks down at his left arm tucked into the sling, wrapped up in bandages. bolin doesn't know what happened, so... different timeline, he guesses. he's from earlier. mako's talked to enough people that he knows it's possible now. but he's dressed in the uniform from kuvira's army, so they can't be that far apart, just. far enough. still, as much as he's trying to be open and honest, he can't bring himself to say, i almost died.
and he's realizing that if he had... if bolin hadn't dragged him out of the mech before it exploded, that bolin would be all alone in the world. and he wouldn't have anyone left who could tell him these things. mako's had plenty of near-death experiences, so much so it's normalized. but this is the first time he's taken serious injury that can't just be healed away. he's probably going to have to wake up every morning for the rest of his life in pain. that brings it home in a way he's never had to worry about before. makes it real.
bolin could have been left alone.
and he'd. be all right. of course he would. not like if mako lost him, he'd absolutely lose it and never recover, but. bo's hardier than he is in that way, he'd survive. but the little things that mako could have told him and never did, those would be gone forever. )
I guess it just... it's still hard to talk about them sometimes. But you still deserve to know.