Not at all. I'd think I was hallucinating on some sort of new drug, if I didn't feel my own pain so clearly. So, it must be reality... but it's playing out like some sort of fantasy. A story.

[He's caught his breath enough to ramble, at least, while they walk.]

I wonder what it means... Ah, I'm just a normal high school boy, you see? An idol. That's all.